#1: The first dose came from Mission Prep, which is a class I happen to love. We talked about "Personal Radiation" in class. Mainly that everyone has an influence that permeates and affects others.
"Man's unconscious influence is the silent, subtle radiation of personality - the affect of his words and actions on others...every man has an atmosphere which is affecting every other man...and by these qualities he will constantly affect the world." - David O. McKay
What a beautiful statement. And and alarming one. Every action you make is being watched by someone else, and every action makes a difference. Life is a state of radiation and absorption. What are you giving off?
Alright, that was dose of reality #1. Number 2 was less uplifting.
#2: you will be alone sometimes. I found myself with an hour to kill in-between classes when I wasn't expecting to be on campus. I bought me some lunch and then worked on a paper for english. While sitting alone at a table. I don't know what about that makes me feel so insecure.
You look around and realize that there are people sitting around you who are just as alone as you are, but all you really focus on are the groups of people at the table. Is it just me, or do they seem larger when you're by yourself? I think you only focus on them because they're the ones making all the ruckus. You feel annoyed at them for making so much noise during your quiet time, while still wishing you were joining in the din of laughter.
Bet you weren't expecting to read that, were you? Hahaha, don't worry. I'm not bitter or anything. It's a fact of life that you will be alone sometimes. For me, this happened to be between 2 and 3pm in the Wilkinson center today. It's ok, really.
#3: although there are lonely times, there are friend times, and hopefully those outweigh the solitary times. I got to reunite with 2 absolutely amazing girls yesterday and today for different lunch dates. It was wonderful! One of my favorite things is getting to know how people see the world, what they feel in specific situations, and what they're doing in their life. Mostly, I just love to listen. People have great stories to tell if you only tune out the noise and focus on them.
#4: My last dose of reality was at 7pm tonight when I realized that there were only 30 hours separating the reuniting of two best friends. Do you think I'm going to get ANY sleep tonight? I doubt it, although I hope so - because I sure won't be getting any tomorrow!
#5: I realized that I missed Modern Family SO much. I'm so glad that it was on again tonight. 
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